Day 2 - High expectations

I sat awake all night thinking about feeling well.   I cried when I left the Pharmacy with 15 supplements to begin taking immediately.   With the hope of finding my way.    I felt my fork in the road had finally come.   I have supplements to help repair my gallbladder my liver, to help my thyroid function, to help me digest, to help me sleep, keep calm and amino acids to bring some balance back in my body.      

The pharmacist spend 2 hours talking about how my body is not functioning properly in all of my organs and how the thyroid and my sugar intake affects them all.    So they are not one off problems, they are symptoms of a bigger problems.    So all my trips to gynecologist (due to large fibroid),  intestinal doctors for Irritable Bowl,  to the bronchial doctor for COPD/asthma, to the physcologist and psychiatrist for my depression and oh yeah - my primary physician who tells me I am just fine every time are all BECAUSE of how my body functions.     I was shown lots of charts, graphs and how molecules work in the thyroid hormone.     Then a simple test was done.    Iodine was placed on my wrist.    If the iodine disappeared in less than 8 hours, I had an iodine deficiency.   And yes iodine is critical to the functioning of the thyroid.    The iodine spread on my wrist disappeared in 5 hours.     I cried again.   I cried because I have been told to eliminate salt and most of the forms where iodine exists in order to lower my heart problems - oh yes - forgot to talk about my heart arrhythmia.    

For years I had 'eaten well' by having fruit , grains, veggie and proteins.  I have a complete craving for bread every day.  I buy whole grain.    But without bread I become irritated, angry and just not happy.       But now I understand that the fruit and the grains, no matter how 'good' they are for you, can be BAD when you don't handle sugar properly in your body.    Then my liver and gallbladder compensate for the sugar and the result is too much stress on those organs which affects my digestion, heart, blood flow etc. etc. etc....  

I took my supplements today and felt slightly better.    I now need to organize my diet.    Only Veggies for me for a few weeks.   I'll talk about that tomorrow. 

The day I learned about the way my body was working

I have been feeling fatigued for most of my life.   Numerous doctors later, the answers were always the same.   Eat less, eat more healthy foods and exercise more.    But it never worked quite right.    Then I was diagnosed with a Thyroid problem.   Levothyroxine was prescribed and every year I complained that I "just don't feel right".    The same answer....   your blood works looks OK, you should be fine...   Just eat less, exercise more and eat more healthy foods.       I began the slow journey into depression believing I had no control, something was wrong with me, it had to be me...     Why can't I just lose weight, lose the stomach bloating and fat, not be irritated, feel good, feel invigorated, feel...  NORMAL...    I entered my 47th year of life without much hope, so I checked myself into a facility which helped me learn how to meditate and like who I was.   Accept that I am what I am....     That was 18 months ago.     I made my first new year's resolution in 2009 - which was to not listen to anyone anymore.   Take control of my health and accept that as long as I am doing everything I can....  I will be ok. 

I watched the Oprah show in 2008 about her Thyroid Ah-ha moment, read many books and finally did the research about Natural Pharmacy's.   I bit the bullet, got my bloodwork and entered a new world where someone took over 2 hours to explain to me how my body works.      I left that meeting in shock (and believe I still am) as everything I learned changed my entire perspective on how I WAS feeling.         I thought it would be a good thing to share what I am experiencing over the next 90 days.    This is the time period where, I am told, my life will change...   I believe it too.....